Godliness with Contentment

This is just a small realization/ personal growth achievement, but I think it's worth posting about!


About a week after I arrived here, my mom sent me 2 "care packages" with some food, more conditioner (I was already running out), more skirts, dvd's, etc.. The post office said it would take 7-10 days to make it here. HAH. Boy they do NOT know what they're talking about! When talking to people here, they said it sometimes takes more than 2 months for the package to arrive here. This was disappointing to hear, but we were hoping and praying that it would make it here sooner! Last Saturday, I was out with my friend Jess all day, but I knew that Israel had gone to the post office that day. On the boda boda ride home, I said "Lord, can the packages just be there when I get home? Please? I really really really really would love to have this stuff before I leave here!" And the Lord said to me (super abruptly, I might add), "Well are you going to be content if they never come? Am I enough for you? Or are you just going to keep complaining until they come?" I then realized that I had been crossing my fingers waiting for these packages to come, thinking that when they came it would be easier to be content.. if I had some familiar food, more skirts so I didn't have to wear the same one every day, conditioner so my hair wasn't a rat's nest every day, etc.. And when the Lord said that to me, I just decided that it wasn't true, and said "absolutely, Lord.. you're enough for me, and I will just be content with your love no matter if they come or not" , and just changed my attitude about it.. and at that point, wasn't concerned about it anymore. Then lo and behold, when I walked in the door 10 minutes later, the first thing Teresha said was "look what's on the chair!" and there on the chair sat my two lovely packages from my mom. 


I was so in awe of the Lord! He knew my heart. Psalm 37 says that if we delight ourselves in the Lord, that He will give us the desires of our hearts. But we need to delight in HIM more than we delight in the desires in our hearts. I'm learning every day how the Lord is my everything. He's everything I need. I have to be reminded of it EVERY single day, because I'm a human, and I tend to complain more than I realize how much the Lord has given me. There's a song called "I'm Sustained" that has become sort of a theme song for my time here. It talks about how the Lord's love is so completely satisfying, we don't need anything else. There's nothing we need that He hasn't provided, and He can give us peace even in the toughest situations. The chorus is 
"Jesus, your love is enough. It's efficient for me. All I have needed you've given for free. Your love is enough, don't need man's applause, I know what I'm worth, I remember the cross. I'm sustained, Oh Lord. When your light surrounds me, the world goes away. I'm sustained, Oh Lord. My heart knows your love like it flows through my veins. Such peace and contentment, I found in your grace, I can't think why I ever complained. You love me what more could I want, I'm sustained."
I literally sing this song every single morning in my freezing cold shower that doesn't really leave me feeling clean. I'm not even kidding, every single morning, I just have to start singing this song- because otherwise I will go nuts, and be an extremely ugly person. It's really made the world of difference!


1 Timothy 6:6 
"But godliness with contentment is great gain."